postal exchange

(Kuwait Towers)


While reading your posts, it reminds me of the same feeling I had when I landed here in Kuwait City. The only difference is that you will see Filipinos almost everywhere, so I don't feel alienated at all; there are no mountains here only mounds of sands but there are beautiful landscapes along the seaside, sculptured trees at the center islands of main roads, white sands along the beach where you can walk anytime on barefoot (showing of some skin are strictly prohibited for women – you'll see them basking under the sun or get sunk in the sea wearing their abayas).

Little by little I've learned a few Arabic words mostly used; sometimes I get the message by their gestures and facial expressions. Kuwait is an open city; expats like me has minimal restriction when it comes to clothing as long as you keep your private parts covered including thighs and arms.

Laws are highly regarded here, ignorance from it will put you behind bars or might as well you will be deported and blacklisted for several months. So to be safe, I stayed at home after work, supermarket during my off days or to Friday market (super laking ukayan at dibisorya in one place) where you can buy second hand stuff – from clothings, shoes (signature ones like Dr. Mortens) to interesting artifacts.

Currently, the weather is tolerable (maybe sanay na ko) the heat is up to 40+ but its dry, dust storms comes if the weather is changing from summer to winter v.v. (another one bites the dust hehehe).

just give it a thought...

In April, Maya Angelou was interviewed by Oprah on her 70+ birthday.
Oprah asked her what she thought of growing older.
And, there on television, she said it was "exciting." Regarding body
changes, she said there were many, occurring every day...like her breasts.
They seem to be in a race to see which will reach her waist, first.
The audience laughed so hard they cried. She is such a simple and honest
woman, with so much wisdom in her words!
Maya Angelou said this:

"I've learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life
does go on, and it will be better tomorrow."

"I've learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she
handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled
Christmas tree lights."

"I've learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents,
you'll miss them when they're gone from your life."

"I've learned that making a 'living' is not the same thing as 'making a
life'.

"I've learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance."

"I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's mitt on
both hands; you need to be able to throw some things back."

"I've learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I
usually make the right decision."

"I've learned that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one."

"I've learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone.
People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back."

"I've learned that I still have a lot to learn."

"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget
what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."

kaleidoscope

Oftentimes I think I should have been like this if I did the right thing, but how would you know if it is the right thing? When in the first place you don’t know what will happen and all you have in hand are the choices and make the best decision with less consequence. That’s why I have to test the water if it is too cold or hot for me before I plunge in; there is no harm in trying as long as you know your limitations and you can handle the situation without messing up with other people.

First of, I grew up with no emotional ties with my folks, all they could think about was how to feed us, send us to school, etc., yet I don’t have any regrets. With what had happened I learned how to stand up on my own at an early age, depending on myself made me realized a lot of things. Up to now, it is very unusual for me to ask for some favors from other people, as long as I could do it I will not ask for help.

Now I am in the unfamiliar situation, I know I asked for this one but it is quite difficult for me to adjust…I am not used to be taken cared of. I went through a lot of hard times and I have managed to settle all these on my own. Yes, I have few friends who had helped me to pick up the pieces and to start all over again but I cannot depend on them for the rest of my days, they have a life of their own.

On the rebound with my family, I landed on the soil of many countries to fulfill my moral obligations. I thought that it would be very easy for me to leave them, most specially my habits and routines. For a stubborn ass like me, it is like passing through the hole of the needle. My so-called-life in non-linear, as much as possible I want it to be spontaneous, I won’t go by the rules if the rules says it will jeopardize my individuality and freedom to explore other things. Life is too short. I cannot see myself to miss the best things in life and most of them are free.
For me boundaries are extension of another dimension that needs to be seen and discover. Not just to see the sights and travel around in a certain place and time but to search for what’s in store for me in a strange land. To gather sticks of pain in the times of drought, to lay down in sublime happiness under the tree of ecstasy, to drench my consciousness with raindrops of sorrow and to shout furiously while running in the field of chaos.

With all these colors of my hallucinations, I am dying to know the depth of these patterns.

factoids...

Ultimate Opposite Sex Survey (for girls)
--Your Favorite--
Hair Color::	dark gray
Eye Color::	no preference
(Their)Music Genre Preference::	extreme-60s/techno
Height(estimate)::	5'6" up
Age::	33 up
Personality Type::	mysterious but wacky, weird?!
--This or That--
Older or Younger::	older
Romantic or Horndog::	romantic
Smart or Stupid::	smart
Fat or Skinny::	fat
Skinny but Muscular or Big and Muscular::	big and mascular
Punk or Preppy::	preppy
The Big Picture or the Little Things::	little things
Flowers/Candy or Big Expensive Present::	flowers/candy
Mixtape or Burned CD::	burned cd
Love or Lust::	LOVE
Emotional or Just Not::	emotional
Sincere or Jokester::	sincere
Hott and mean or Ugly and sweet::	ugly and sweet
Sexy or Just Cute::	just cute
Arse or Abs::	abs
Hair or Hands::	hands
Dimples or Eyes::	eyes
Biceps or Calves/Thighs::	calves/thighs
Teeth or Nose(some people are just wierd) ::	teeth
Clean Shaven or Scruffy::	BB is scruffy!
Rugged or Prim and Proper::	rugged but BB is prim and proper!
Countryboy or Cityboy:	countryboy
Date alone or With Friends:	alone
Mama's Boy or Rebel Without A Cause::	in between...
--Have You Ever--
Dumped a guy because he liked you too much::	yes, 3x already
Loved a guy because he stalked you::	a big NO
Loved a guy because he hated you::	another big huge NO
Asked your friend's crush out::	sometimes, close friends only
Lead a guy on for kicks::	never tried
Asked a guy out purely because he was hott::	no guts to do that!
Flirted with guys even though you had a boyfriend::	never tried, im very devoted (wink)
Lied about not having a boyfriend::	i never lied, swear!
Lied about having one::	i never did
Cheated::	i NEVER did, not even once!
Been Cheated on::	yes many times!!!
Had a crush on a gay guy::	YES
--Their Clothing(yes/no)--
Boxers?::	yes
Briefs?::	yes
Hat?::	yes
Skater Shoes?::	no
Pimp Shoes?::	no
Band Shirts?::	yes
Vintage shirts?::	YES
Southpole/um..other thug clothes..?::	yes
Dixie Outfitters/Big Johnsons?::	no
Independent/DC?::	yes
S&M/Little Devil?::	no
Fox/Thor?::	no
Jeans or Shorts?::	jeans
--Be Honest--
Would you ever date a guy for his money?::	NEVER
Would you ever date a guy for his social status?::	NEVER
Have you ever liked hanging out with your bf's friends more than him?::	no
Have you ever pretended to like somebody to make them feel better?:	no
Have you called a girl a whore, when you were screwing lots of guys?::	NO
Do looks matter?::	no
Are you honestly scared of being dumped?::	no, there are many fishes in the ocean
Does size matter?::	no its the performance hahaha
Do you avoid 'situations' with ugly guys?::	no, that's an awful thing to do
Are you ashamed to be seen with your ugly friends?::	no, never
Are you ashamed for being ashamed?(you better be)::	for what?
Do you hide things from your crushes/guy friends/bf?::	some things not all
Do you lie about masturbation for attention or false innocence?::	no
Do you really want a guy to say if those jeans make your butt look fat?::	in a nice way, why not
Are you dissapointed when your bf doesn't say I love you right away?::	no
Wanna be a virgin till marriage?:	ngiawwww!! N/A
Do you really love the guys everytime that you say it?:	i seldom say that phrase
Do you dream about your crushes/bfs/guy friends?::	yes most of the times
Would you makeout with a guy friend just to get it over with/curiosity?::	a close friend maybe AND if we both want it, why not
Does this survey suck nuts?:	i think so!?
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dreamcrasher

i was catching up with my sleep late last night till finally my eyes dropped. as i was closing my eyes i felt something unusual, the same feeling i had when there is an unvited guest within my perimeter...fuck its happening again. after three years of having a normal brain wave but i guess they are everywhere and the nothing could stop them from barging in. the thing is i am getting used to it-- hearing, feeling and seeing unusual things--to some people who had not experienced this you may think (100%) that i need professional help, at some point i wanted to try.

rational thinking--most of the times, yes but there were things that i really can't explained why. or maybe my imagination is getting wild again.

sometimes i don't know which is real...

the uninvited visited me again... just late last night.

if i were you, keep your imagination under control as much as possible, because you will never know what will going to happen later.

the good thing is in your dreams you can do almost everything, you are in control, BUT what if you are not dreaming, what would you do?

shadow in the mirror

if only i could shoo away and tell these guys about my preference maybe they would not have the guts to invite me to go out with them. but then again on the second thought, one out of ten would understand, the rest they would be very interested to know and find out more, merely because its one of their sexual fantasies. many have dared but none of them succeed. i dont mind, not at all. i am happy being alone. its not that i am a man-hater or man-eater oh what the f***ng word it may suits, i just don't need somebody at the moment. yes, i am scared of the word--COMMITMENT, its like a ten thousand pound gorilla sitting on my chest. i want to enjoy being free and unbound.

cuff links

whenever i put this blouse i always remember how you fold the sleeves and compliment how beautiful it is and how it suits me. the same way i have pictured you in my mind when you are sleeping and i could not waste any single moment watching you. its not raining here not like there, but it reminds me of you particularly when we had stolen moments. you may not know it but i loved you very well despite of all the odds. with you i experienced to go beyond my limits and discovered more of myself--being me without inhibitions, being carefree and bold. remember when i sneaked out of our house in the wee hours just to be with you? you have let me see your private world without me asking and i said that that's the boldest thing to do for a stranger like me. and now i realized the things i missed about you...thanks for the awakening.